Old, is it a number?
47 years old. I don't even know what to say about that. Its like I am ancient, some days I feel ancient. But yet...its like starting again. With three kids, 22,19 & 16...Its like I am now starting a new life. I don't look good, I don't feel good. My marriage is rocky...on a good day. I know the Lord, but...can't say I am faithful to Him. Despite a major meltdown of judgment in 1997, I am faithful to my husband. I'm still not forgiven...but here we are..........................yea. That sucks. But another story. My deepest desire right now is to lose about 130 pounds. I will start today...Sept 18th. At least this is what I am telling myself. At this time next year, I would like to be planning a breast reduction. I am so done with being this "Me". SO...here we go. Here's to starting over. Sort of.